Furious

Today has been one of the worst days of my life. I woke up this morning in terrible pain. When you go to the doctor and they ask you what's your pain on a scale of 1-10. Today I could have easily said 15. Pain had been so bad. I decided to wait it out to see if it got better. Around two I called my doctor in bham to ask what I can do and she suggested I take a warm bath and see if that works. If not go to the ER. The ER is always my last resort. Only problem is I had to rely on my last resort 3 times in the past in the past three weeks. I know what you're thinking. I thought you had a pain doctor to help with this pain. You are correct. I'm taking morphine daily and it does not help with my pain at all. So after the bath I didn't feel any better soI ended up at the ER. I was given two shots and sent home. I wish I knew a doctor in my area that would promote IC awareness. I would put all my money into the program to make sure women in my area with IC don't have to go through what I am going through. There needs to be doctors that at least have an understanding of what IC is and not this generic idea that it's just a bad UTI that causes you to have frequent urination. Cause that's not what it is. It is PAIN. Pain compared to the pain of a cancer patient. Doctors are gonna make sure cancer patients are comfortable. Why not IC patients!?! This is ridiculous to be judged for going to the ER so many times in a month. I'm not seeking a high. I'm seeking HELP and RELIEF. Well my medicine has kicked in so I'm off to bed. Good night all!